All My Little Things

Tonight for dinner I made Creamy Salmon Pasta. I really enjoyed it. My cream didn't thicken, but I was too hungry to wait any longer to see if I could thicken it.

Serves 2

100gm Smoked Salmon Sliced
1/2 Cup Chicken Stock
1/2 Onion
1 clove Garlic
1/2 cup thickened cream
125gm pasta

Cook pasta ad set aside
Put a little oil in bottom of pan and cook onion til soft add garlic. Add Chicken stock and stir, then add the cream. Stir til thickened. Pour sauce over pasta. Add smoked salmon and stir. Dish up and enjoy.

I started my current job as a Christmas casual last year and loved working there and was asked if I would like to stay on as casual permanently. I instantly said yes as I love my workplace. By January I new we were getting a new shop and let them know I was interested in Part time/ Fulltime work if the option was there. They said that there most likely would be and that they will make note of me asking. I found out last week my workplace was closing on the 22d ad we would be given shifts at other stores to help us out for 2 months. I again let them know I was interested in more work if it was available when we re open.
Today at the beggining of my shift the 2IC spoke to me saying they don't feel like I would be able to handle our new store when it opens that it will be too busy for me.
I didn't let it worry me then as I had to work but now getting home it has really hit me.
I'm a little upset as how do they know or feel that way when I have never worked in that situation. Yes I get a little overwhelmed at times but I have never been unable to do my job and I ask for help if I need it.
She thought maybe I would be better off in a quieter store.
Im just a little bummed as I only make $100 a week, it's not enough to live off and I was hoping with more work I could afford my own car and start getting somewhere in life.
I feel as though I have taken so many steps back.
Im upset as this makes me feel a little worthless. I knew I shouldn't of gotten my hopes up.

Well we are on day 3 of our holidays and sadly go home tomorrow. It has been a fun few days and most of the fun we have had are the silly little things.
We arrived on Saturday around 3pm. The admin section has a beautiful waterfall in it and I love looking at it everytime I walk past. Our room is just gorgeous very homey and we have a great view of the water.
We have been to the pool a few times and have used both the spa at the pool and the one in our room!

Will update more in a little bit!

Well this is a little later than 1 week. Since March 3rd I have lost the 1.3 kilos plus a little extra. I have dropped 1.6 kilos and been the same weight for 4 days in a row and today weighed in and have lost an extra .3 =D I'm so happy. I know this may vary tomorrow but it made me feel so good and happy.

This is just the beginning!

Well it is 10pm but I decided to weigh myself as this week gone I have been a junk food grot!
Something in the past week just changed in me and I have been pigging out.
In the past 4 days I have consumed:
1 tin whipped cream
2 serves ice cream
1/2 block chocolate
1 1/2 small bag chips
2 six inch subways both nearly 500 calories each

In this period of time I have put on 1.3kg's!!! Insert gross vomit smilie here.

Tonight I snapped back into my better self. I'm ready to change and fix my heath.
Starting tomorrow I will get back into my routine of breakfast, snack, lunch, snack and dinner with a slight snack before bed ie piece of fruit, rice cracker etc.

I haven't had water in this period of time either. Always fizzy of some sort although on a positive half of the time it was mineral water.

Hopefully I will update in a week to say I have made some progress!

In March we will celebrate being together for 4 years so we decided to go away for 3 nights. We are not going to far, just to Port Macquarie but we will find some fun things to do while we are there. We booked our hotel today and can't wait to see what it will be like!!

I'm going to follow my dream! After getting my Christmas casual position and being kept on, I realised everything is ok and I can go on with my life and do what I want to do!
I always wanted to do interior design/ colour design and put it off because I couldn't afford it. Now I'm starting next year giving me time to save up for the course and just do it!

I love my job and the people I work with! I'm looking into a full time position when our new stor opens up.

So I still haven't finished my list yet but I have completed some things on my list. Once completed I will put them in Italic and make them purple. After reading a few other blogs I noticed several of them had a list of things to do before their next birthday. The list must consist of a number of the age they will be turning of things to do. Hope that makes sense!!! I'll be turning 23 in May so I will have a list of 23 things to do. :D I find this inspirational as I always feel like life is getting ahead of me, and that it is just going by to fast. When I turned 22 I sat down for a moment and realised that 22 had just gone by so quickly. I can't remember everyday, yet everyday has shaped me to be the person I am today. I used to wish to be older, but now I look back and wish I had appreciated that time more, yet it is now a lesson I have learnt.
So now I will start putting the list together.
1. Finish Open Foundation
2. Save $2500
3. Get my Tupperware Business back up and running
4. Get fit and healthy by leading a healthier lifestyle
5. Read my Roswell books that I paid a fortune for
6. Clean and sort out my room once and for all
7. Spend more time with my Grandma
8. Plan a holiday - It is a little further away then I wanted, but it will be overseas.
9. Renovate the laundry
10. Furnish the house
11. Save for a nice tv - this happened accidentally. My old tv broke so I bought a new one =D
12. Buy a Nintendo Wii
13. Walk my dog once a week
14. Declutter my things and get rid of what I don't need
15. Redecorate the spare room
16. Paint a picture
17. Buy a new handbag
18. Organise all my Tupperware
19. Use a diary
20. Do some craft once a week
21. Get a job I love
22. Get a list ready for 24 before 24
23. Learn to never regret

Well 2010 has well and truely started!
A lot of things have been happening. I'm not going back to study til middle of the year. The break will give me time to reassess what I want to do and not just do things because others want me to.
I'm working casualy at Bras n Things and love it! The girls are great and I'm gaining confindence in myself again.
I still work casualy at my other place of work but after being yelled at ridiculously by the manager for something that was not my fault but her own and threatened by her I am taking a few weeks off. Acting the way she did does not help any situation let alone someone with depression and anxiety. Grrr.
i'm also going to try and cook more. I got a Max Brenners Cook book for christmas so there are plenty of recipes to try.
Lots of cleaning and sorting to do and I'm sure I'll find plenty of other things aswell.